Not sure where to begin!
I moved from Michigan in 1999, and that is a hard thing to do. I did not know anyone and started to get lazy and depressed. It is hard when things change so much.
Love living here and having a married life, but there must have always been the one thing in me. Depression!! You do not even know you have it. That fake smile goes on and you make it look easy when you are dying on the inside. I was getting so heavy and I didn't know what way to go.
Many diets and excersizes I could never stick to! I was looking for the easy "Weight loss Pill" or "Easy Trick" (No such thing)
Fast Forward after 2 kids....
292 Pounds is my heaviest.
Pulling this picture out, my kids didnt even know it was me.
My dream has always been to do a 5K. Well at this weight there was no running involved in that race. I don't have to win but I want to be able to run/jog the whole thing.
I told Kelli and she said she would work with me. Well it is very hard for me to do things in front of people because I am so heavy. She was such an encourager. I thought I never could run with my asthma but she got me understanding how to work through it. So in November we started with like jogging 15 feet and walking then jogging and me nearly passing out. She held my had and got me working through mental thoughts and physical walls.
Now I am able to go out and jog. Still cant do a whole lot but my minutes started at 29 min mile and now i am at about 12 min mile. That is HUGE for me.
I started to change somethings on how I was eating and tried hard. But I would hit a wall and not loose a pound and just quit. Many times this has happen in the last 3 years.
With in the last year our son was being evaluated for some things going on in our lives.
I was in with a session with him and the Doctor asked me if I had ever been tested for ADHD. Well I was super upset because we were trying to get Collyn on the correct path and here he is talking about me. Upset I talked to Shane and we thought maybe it was a good idea to get tested. I went through 3 weeks of tests and come to the conclusion, Im Depressed, severe ADHD, OCD tendencies and Sensory Issues.
OH MY GOSH!!! NOT ME!!!
Shane said he wished he knew this many years ago because maybe it could have saved some hassles the last 18 years. Now he is learning how to deal with this for both myself and our son.
Been working on my diet with taking out processed food and that has helped. I am also on medince for Depression and ADHD. What a difference on my focus and being able to do things.
Now I am very focused on what goes in my mouth and I try to stay busy. Well as a Dairy farmer I guess there is not a day that isn't busy. So this will be where I log my days. I am not good at getting on the computer but I will do my best.
I am now down 100 Pounds. Feels good and I can do so much more.
100 Pounds lighter means I lost my 10 year old daughter off my body!
So maybe follow me and we will have things to work through. I wont be perfect but I am doing my best. I hope this encourages someone to loose weight the correct way because there is no Magic anything to do this.
